S. Pelligrino
It is Neil's fault that I have fallen in love with the taste of some good bubbly mineral water. Either because a) he is the one who introduced me to drinking the stuff (it is his general favorite thing to drink and it is always in the house) or b) because he is the reason I moved to this ultra-warm climate and the cold bubbles and light mineraly taste are darn good after working in the yard. Regardless, it is his fault.
I am doing a review for a branch that is spread out in several locations locally this week. It is a blessing and a curse...mostly blessing. I get to sleep in my own bed each night. I don't have to get up at the crack of dawn each day (not that I don't do that naturally anyway). And all my toiletries are on hand without having to dog through a suitcase or a make-up bag. The curse is that I have quite a bit I ought to get done in the evenings that I am not doing because I am home and have other things to do during my off hours. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue even when doing a local review because most branches are a bunch of people in one place. Unfortunately, this is a bunch of people all in their own locations. Which means I don't even take my laptop with me because there is no place to hook-up and no time since all my 'down time' is spent driving to the next office. Ces't la vie. I will get it done tomorrow afternoon and Friday.
Tomorrow is another story all together. My manager is going to be listening in on one of my interviews as part of our internal quality control. It makes me nervous even though I know I have nothing to be nervous about.
*sigh* I always feel like I am back in school and I am going to make some horrible mistake and get in big trouble. I HATE that feeling. Though, to be truthful, I live almost every day with that feeling...that I have somehow done some unknown terrible thing that is going to get me in huge trouble (i.e. permanently ruin my relationship, lose my job, get evicted from my home, have my dogs taken from me, etc.) Over-anxious much? Yeah. I dream almost nightly of major natural disasters and wake up in a panic (after fully panicking in my dream) because I am not ready. Well no shit (pardon the foul language), but no one, even if they think they are prepared, are truly prepared for such an event - I mean I am talking cataclysmic floods, earthquakes, etc. So yeah, my point with all this, besides pointing out to everyone just how much of a freak I really am? I am stressing out because I think I am going to lose my job tomorrow even though I logically know I won't.
So yeah...tonight I am going to veg out in front of the TV with a couple beers, a movie or two and my dogs...snuggle them close and try not to think about What-If.
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